Being Deaf is my goal. Thats what freedom always meant. Money is part of it, but only insofar as it is a fruit of freedom, and serves my freedom. I can have money and be free. Freedom to do what I want! What do I want? To Be Deaf. What is being Deaf?
Well, I’m 39 and I’m only just now learning. Thanks to internet. and my brother for giving me ‘permission’ to allow identification with a stigmatized minority, special interest group, pluralism, multiculturalism, bilingualism. To embrace the truth of myself is to be free. Audism kept me away from Deaf peers, Deaf mentors, Deaf culture, and Deaf language. Church, school, parents, everybody was against me. Yes I want to be free. I got free with real estate. but with market crash Ive been forced into employment and the reminders that I dont fit into the hearing world which disregards my minority linguistic status. I am a victim of epistemic violence. Denied my right to be me. Church school and parents everyone telling me I was born a sinner and being Deaf was bad. I couldn’t trick or treat, watch TV, listen to radio, date, go to dances, have a car, get an apartment, quit college… Every act of independence I made from quitting McDonalds, to proceeding with my academic career on my terms, to quitting hearing aids, to being an entrepreneur has been judged as wrong.
I am done with the hearing world. I am going to continue to do what I do. Art + music was just one expression of the essence of Being Deaf. Real estate was a way I could finance that. But the ‘that’ was simply time to be me, time to be alone, without the stress of hearing people. To do what I do, is to Be Deaf. Call me what you want, put me on probation, fire me, fine me, arrest me , incarcerate me, and generally disdain me, but at least I know why you do it, because I know who I am.
Your machines and genes can’t fix me cuz I aint broke. If everyone did sign but you could only listen + speak, you’d be the disabled one. Disability is a social issue, not a medical profiteering, exploitation of cultural linguistic minority. Yes I am angry. Yes I am militant. So now my reaction to your genocide is judged as wrong, too? Your linguistic, colonistic oppression shall be exposed, and all Deaf/HOH will be allowed and given sign language and association with Deaf peers + Deaf mentors.
Not listening is not wrong. Do you think I am wrong for Being Deaf?